8.24.2008

you LOVE me, but you LIKE her.

Muak. Iya, muak! Gw udah muak sama semua hal yg udah terjadi 2 minggu belakangan ini. Gw benci sama diri gw for the past 2 weeks. Gw ngerasa gw bener2 lemah. Gw ngerasa gw bener2 idiot. Gw ngerasa diri gw hina. Gw benci banget. Kenapa sifat keras gw malah ga muncul di waktu kyk gini? Gw bener2 butuh banget jadi keras lagi, gw ga mau jadi lemah, terutama di depan mereka! So not worth it. Hhh. Apa2an, memohon2? Nangis berhari2? Sejak kapan gw jadi super lemah kayak gitu? Dulu waktu jaman SMA 1 sbelum kenal dia kayaknya gw super tegar. Gw ditinggal orang yg dulu gw pikir paling berarti gw ga knapa2, karena gw tau... walau gw udah keilangan dia tp gw masih ada keluarga gw yg lain. Waktu gw umur 8, gw keilangan orang yg bener2 paling penting di hidup gw: gw ga segininya. Yes, why??? What the fuck am I doing right now crying for someone yg LEBIH ENGGAK penting dari mereka? Sumpah, gw skrg bener2 ngerasa tolol, idiot, lemah, hina banget. DIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! For God's sake, DIA!?

Gw ada lagu bagus banget yg menurut gw bener2 buat keadaan gw saat ini, 7 things by Miley Cyrus. Iya, gw emg ga suka sama si penyanyi tapi lagu2 dia bagus. Gw ga berusaha jadi munafik makanya gw admit aja. Ini liriknya:

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh
You make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes
Your old Levis
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

You do, oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh

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Haha, bener2 ngepas banget anjrit! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Gila, gw kalo bener2 kayak gini dalam sebulan gw bisa GILA! SH!T.

xoxo

1 comment:

audi. said...

emg jauh lebih ga penting.